14th October

I was due to attend the open day on Saurday at Derby Uni but I was getting anxious about it and didn't go in the end.   I started to think about the end result of this course and confusion and fear set in and I felt I had to suddenly have a career plan.   I know I have to think about it, and I have been, but for some reason, this thinking goes into I NEED TO CREATE SOMETHING COMMERCIAL TO SELL.   I freeze and then can't produce anything.   So producing that sample on Saturday night was a bit of a breakthrough.   I've rescheduled the open day in November and calm is restored.