18th and 19th September - first 2 days back

Not much to reflect on for the first 2 days really other than a team building exercise building a bridge from newspaper, straws and masking tape.   I HATE these exercises because I know I'm not good at them.  I had 2 interviews for jobs involving these exercises and needless to say I didn't get the jobs.  So I should reflect on why I'm no good at them to see what I can learn.....   I'm conscious that I go into these exercises with a "i'm no good at them" attitude.   I'm an organised personal with lots of skills and used to organising people so I make an effort not to take over in these kinds of tasks.   So I say "how do we want to do this?"   The answers come back and I don't understand what the design is going to be like.   I suggested (weakly) that maybe we could put something on paper .... the suggestion is ignored.    So I know we have no design on paper to start off with but I stay quiet and just muddle through.   I feel uncomfortable with one person in the group and want the task to be over.  I ask rather than suggest things like some feeble person (which I know I'm not).   How could I do it differently next time?   Take a piece of paper and say "right any suggestions" and draw them up so at least I have a visual of what we're trying to achieve.   Not worry so much about taking over or taking charge; if people are going to let me do it then......